Michael Richardsis addressing his racist outburst 18 years after the incident.
Anger is quite a force.
Rather than run from it, I dove into the deep end and tried to learn from it.
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It hasnt been easy.
Reflecting on the night he lashed out at the hecklers, he said, Im not racist.
I have nothing against Black people.
I felt put down.
I wanted to put him down.
Richards reflected on turning down offers following the success ofSeinfeld, signs that he was not doing well.
I said no to the offer of a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
I didnt feel deserving, he said.
I said no to hostingSaturday Night Livetwice because I didnt feel good enough.
I was never really satisfied with mySeinfeldperformance.
Fame magnified my insecurities.
