Trigger warning: this article contains mention of suicide and other disturbing topics.
Johns life is now a legacy, she said.
My love for him will never die and will continue with me forever.
John BalsonSupplied
I cant move on from my love for John, and I never will.
Love is the only thing that never dies.
The shows producer,Alaska TV, has said staff welfare is treated with paramount importance.
The industry can find a replacement the next day, but there will never be another John Balson.
Alaska has not addressed these allegations directly, citing Channel 4s ongoing investigation.
Its inevitable that he took on a massive amount of pressure, she added.
My three-year-old daughter will never remember the cherished moments she had with him.
He did not have a history of mental health issues, his family said.
Alaska said it gives colleagues access to support resources.
A gofundme page has been set up for Balsons family and donationscan be made here.
Suicide is preventable and support can be found via theSamaritans,National Suicide Prevention Helplineandother organizations.
It provides in-the-moment help from trained counsellors, as well as access to other mental health support.
Partners and adult children of people working in the industry are also able to access help.
Call 0800 054 0000 or visitwww.filmtvcharity.org.ukto start a Live Chat.
